Heyho !
So my baby is reaching 14 weeks, wohooo.
In next control, i guess we can start knowing my baby's gender.
And i'm very excited about it hihi :)

Also, i realized something during this pregnancy.
At first, i have many targets related what i want to achieve during my master degree.
I already feel regret about failing study abroad.
So i want to make sure, i will do my best during this 1,5 years.
But then, suddenly i know that there's baby in my belly.
It's surprising ( of course ! )
Although me and husband already waiting for it :")

Then slowly, everything's changed.
Honestly, i was facing some depressions :(
Because the rapid changes of hormones, uncontrolled mood etc.
I was afraid i couldn't achieve what i planned before.
My target to be cum laude, my FWP project and so on.
Even sometimes i end up crying out loud during the early weeks of pregnancy.

But on some point, i start to let go.
I'm slowly accepting the facts that maybe it's okay.
It's okay to be less ambitious during this pregnancy.
So much difference in terms of energy, physical condition compare with my normal life.
And it's okay :"")
As long as i still could keeping up with the studies
As long as i still could giving the best for my baby.
It's really okay.

Let's do your very best faa.
You sure know you can do it ! :)

.ifalifa

Assalamualaikuuum readers
Okay i know its been to long since my last post.
Stats sudah mulai menurun.
Been through a lot these past 2 months. :")

Jadiii, right now i'm officially full time post grad student at MM UI.
In case you are wondering mengenai perkuliahaan mungkin akan kuceritakan di post lain.
Tapi highlight utama dari post ini adalah....
KULIAH S2 SAMBIL HAMIL !

Okeh jadi beginiii ceritanya, sejujurnya selama ini aku dan suami sudah mulai bertanya -tanya kenapa tak kunjung hamil. ( ini behind storiesnya, byk yang sedih loh )
Dan akhirnya kita sepakat kalo setelah setahun ini belum hamil juga, kita akan cek ke dokter.
Terus masuklah bulan Agustuss yang super hectic.
Persiapan kuliah, selesein project2 sebelum resign, project FWP dan juga Kelas Inspirasi.
Belum lagi house warming- housewarming yang berturut-turut.
Gue sempet ngerasa capeeek bgt dan keluar flek2.
Karena takut kenapa-kenapa, kita akhirnya ke Dr Ika di RSIA Tambak.
Pas di USG katanya mulai ada kantunggg, deg degaan dong pastinya.
Tapi supaya lebih valid, kita tes HCG ke Lab terus hasilnya negatif :(
Sempet kecewa banget tapi yasudahlah karena lagi sibuk jd ga kepikiran lagi.

Sampe akhirnya datanglah hari dimana aku harus resignn yaitu tanggal 15 Agustus.
Bahkan di hari terakhir aja, masihh lembur wkwk.
Ketika sampe rumah, langsung tepar terus kebanguun tengah malam sekitar jam 2.
Terus ngeliat testpack yang belum dipake iseng kan ngecek.
Ternyata sodara-sodaraaaa, garisnya 2 !
Finallyyy Alhamdulillaah setelah belasan testpack sejak Honeymoon wkwkwk.

Langsung gue bangunin Uda dan kita pelukan hebohh terus sama-sama berkaca-kaca,
Masya Allah, akhirnya dikasih kepercayaan sama Allah SWT untuk punya keturunan.
Besoknya, si Uda sempat nanya dengan polosnya " Yang, tadi malam aku ga mimpi kan ".
So funnyy !

Akhirnya besoknya gue ngecek di salah satu RS di Bogor tapi ga puas sm pelayananya.
Terus akhirnya gue ke Dr Ika lagii tp kali ini di RS Asri.
Dan pas di USG, beneraaan ada kantungnyaaa :""")
Ketika cek kandungannya udah berumur 6 minggu, jadi harus balik 2minggu buat lihat apakah kantungnya berkembang atau engga.