Heyho !
So many things to tell but i dont have time to blogging yet.
Many big things happened in couple of weeks.
And as you all aware, i am entering last month before finaly start the school
I must say that i'm being truly unpassionate :(
Like my heart isn't belong here anymore.
Its like i even cant focus about what i should doo.

Lets cheer up faa.
Finish your responsibility and move on.

Again, questioning myself about do i'm really ready about the marriage.

Fallin' out, fallin' in
Nothing's sure in this world no, no
Breakin' out, breakin' in
Never knowin' what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all no, no, no
Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we never could understand
Why some things begin then just end
We can really never tell it all no, no, no

But oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby, just/please smile
Coz i'm always around you
And ill make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies color's
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Ohh, whoa

Hittin' high, hittin' low
Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather could be so good or bad
But baby this is life now don't get mad no, no, no

Coz oh, cant you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby, please smile
Coz i'm always around you
And ill make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies' colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Life's full of challenges
Not all the time we get what we want
But don't despair my dear coz I know now
You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm
Coz you're strong my faith in you is clear
So ill say once again this worlds wonderful and
Let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful
Ohhhh

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies' colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

This song always know how to cheer me up.
Yes faaa, theese things too shall passs
Manah katanya mau jadi brand manager ?
Masa ngelewatin kyk gini aja gabisa ?
Semangat ipalipaa ! You know you can do iy kaan ? ;)
Sehari menuju #BigBabolSerbuBandung. Doakan sukses dan lancaar dan jadi TTWW yaaah :""""")

Halooo !
Its weekend finaleeeeh
Just visiting Ayah Alii and as usual got many life lessons. :"")
Alhamdulillah ya Allah masih bisa silaturahmi sama kakek, bisa beliin makanan dan sharing2 tentang hidup :)
Anywaaaay, this weeek was such one of the hardest weeek during my time in PVMI.
Consumer promo start while i'm also jugling with event preparation and also something happened too.
Even in Thursday i came home and crying like a baby in front of Mama
Hell yeah growing up process aint that easy yaah :"")
And the issue wasnt something can be explained here but i just getting realize that you will always still keep getting obstacles in every aspect of life
Thats why its really important to stick in your values and doing only good things wherever you are :)
But anywayy, many good things happened too like preparation for Belitung Trip and also being introduced to one new man wkwkwk #tetep #genit
Yaah kebetulan sih emang lagi ga ada yang isi nih hati hahaha gelii bgt ipalipa.
Anyway one week left to Big Babol Serbu Bandung and 2 week left to Belitung Trip !
Letsss do your very bestt faaa ! :)

Just have a little bit too sensitive moment with myself
So my highschool best friends are keep talking about marriage and settle down etc
And i feel like a bit left behind
Like its a wrong way to think that settle down is still long way to go
I mean its not that i dont want to settle down soon
It just i've been trying so hard to stop making myself guessing wheres my the one, when will he enter my life and how he enter it.
It just hurt when someone said that " ati ati lo yg lain aja udah mau settle down peh "
Yes i know it then so what ?
Come on, i'll only be 23 years old this year.
Dont make me so burdened with this settle down thingy.
Its good if almost of my best friends already found their man, i'm truly happy for them.
Of course, sometimes i do feel jealous. We're just human, right ?
One thing i know for sure, my man will come when i'm ready for it. :)

And here's come moment when you feel literally tired
Seems like your efforts not working well
Seems like you cant do like other people expect you to do
Seems like your effort not working :""(

If we're still together yesterday was supposed to be our 26 in 26.
Tapi tapi kan udah engga ya
Maybe you even dont remember about this
So, why i still ya ?
Can someone explain why woman cant move on as fast as man ?

what if the situation is the woman always try to stick around
but the man always want her to let him go.
and thats hurt so much

" kangen banget :""( "
" i wish you could start the talk first "
" dont be too pathetic fa "
" ayok sabar sabar insya Allah bakal worth it "
" WAnya aktif tuh chat sm siapa aja ya ? "
" mau chat sm siapa juga bukan urusan lo kali fa "
" i still hope you're the one for me. "
" Ya Allah SWT , jika memang dia jodohku maka persatukanlah kami di waktu yang tepat "
" bodoh banget sih fa nangis melulu "
" why are you so miserable sih ? "
" udah dong fa jangan dipikirin terus "
" dia nangis nangis kayak gini juga ga ya "
" kok gampang bgt buat dia ya kyknya "
" ngerti alasannya sih tapi kan.. "
" yaudah ngejar mimpi masing-masing dulu "
" dulu dia yang bilang yah mau ngejar mimpinya bareng bareng "
" abis baca chat yang lama-lama jadi makin sedih ya "
" lo sih dulu pake mau pisah dulu, susah kan ternyata "
" susah sih susah tapi ya harus dijalanin fa "
" is he feeling this pain too ? "

- The most painful is being hurted by someone you love the most -

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife ?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net ]
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?


one of my current life soundtrack :"(

all i need is just a simple talk
but it seems too difficult for you to just chat or text me first.