whatever happens
i'm the only one who will start the conversation first
i'm always try to keep excited about whatever kind response he gave
i'm always feel worried when i see his WA not active or we didnt talk for days
i know its wrong because we dont even have any relationship now
and i know i cant force him to do anything
i just cant
if i start any conversation it'll be just ended with tears or sadness
just like today
i just want to talk but it ended with something not good.
i already be too shamefull
maybe i just better keep silent
i wont ask him to do something he dont want do anymore
because when he want talk to me, he will kan ?
although maybe it almost will never happen again
